I was born in Upstate New York and grew up in the church, but with a very weak faith. I was more interested in living for the moment. For my own pleasures. That attitude made it very easy to become involved in drug and alcohol abuse starting at the age of 12. As I went through school I became increasingly aware that music was my calling and I began traveling and playing music as soon as I got out of high school. Along with that came a lifestyle of decadence, selfishness, greed and lust. I was your average, hard working musician but I was obsessed with finding fame and fortune. I had a successful career in the music business. I was winning awards, I had notoriety, money, but I was living for myself. I was raised with a knowledge of who God was but I chose to run from Him for 42 yrs. Whenever I thought about life after death I just shrugged it off and put it out of my mind. After all, I believed in God and Jesus and I thought I was a pretty good person. Add to that the fact that I started to see some success by the world's standards, Top 40 Hit Records, concert tours, TV appearances etc. I thought I had it made.
It wasn't too long after all that when my personal life started spinning out of control and my business failed because of clouded judgments due to increased drug usage, I ended up at my lowest point in a hotel room with a 38. caliber pistol pressed against my temple. Unable to pull the trigger, I gathered myself together with all the strength I had and began making plans for a change.
It wasn't until years later (1995) that I got clean, ending a 26 year Cocaine addiction, and began my journey to salvation. I had met some Christians who shared the Gospel with me and I began to realize that one day I would die and all of a sudden, my eternal destiny became very important to me. I knew then that I had to repent and ask for God's forgiveness. You see, nothing we've ever done is hid from His holy eyes. There comes a time in our lives when we have to ask ourselves, will we be innocent or guilty on the Day of Judgment? Listen to your conscience. If we're honest with ourselves then you know the answer is guilty, and therefore end up in hell. That's not God's will. He provided a way for you and I to be forgiven. He sent His Son to take our punishment: "God commended His love toward us, in that, while we were yet sinners, Christ died for us." He was bruised for our iniquities. Jesus then rose from the dead and defeated death. Our own so-called goodness can't get us into heaven. Jesus is the only way. He is the "Door," the only "mediator." There is salvation in no other name. For God so loved the world, He gave His only begotten Son, that who so ever does believe shall not perish, but have everlasting life. John 3:16.
Then one night I was driving in A rental car and after several months of my Christian friends witnessing and sharing the Gospel with me, I heard a song called "The Anchor Holds" and I felt like God was truly speaking to me through the words of that song. So on a warm summer night, July 22 ,1999 I confessed my sins and prayed for God's forgiveness then I received Jesus Christ as my Lord and Savior!
However, my struggles were not over, over the next few years my third marriage ended in divorce. I went through months of anger management therapy. All the while I was thankfully mentored by some very Godly friends.
Which brings me to this past year and the global pandemic that we all have endured.
Many have lost loved ones. This ministry had to shut down for almost two years, during that time I contracted Covid and thankfully between being fully vaccinated and getting an infusion of monoclonal antibodies, the virus as bad as it was, could have been much worse, or even fatal. While its true that only God knows what lies ahead of us, I truly believe if we maintain our faith, trusting that His will is done, we will fight the good fight and ultimately bring glory to His name!
With this traveling music ministry I have totally committed my life to using the gifts He has given me to share the love of Jesus through music and testimony. I know now that, of all the things I've done in my life, the places I’ve been, the people I’ve met, nothing compares to being forgiven of my sin, being in a right relationship with God, and having the peace in knowing I have the promise of eternal life in heaven with my Savior.